In episode #9, Luis shares how he's been fighting his whole life. How his problems were a result of an internal conflict. Luis shares how towards the end of his drinking career he was constantly waking up at 6AM from a total blackout thinking: "there's no way I'm going to this again." And by 6PM he had 100 reasons/excuses to pick up the first drink and set off the vicious cycle in motion again. Luis shares how after he started going through the twelve steps the Big Book Awakening way, the mental obsession was lifted.